Now What?

If you read along regularly (thank you, so so much!), then you know that I am on a journey to finding my faith. Before I could write about my struggles, doubts, and questions, it took me a long time to find the correct words. Heck, I was sharing some of my deepest thoughts with you all... that's scary! Of course, after I hit publish and there was no turning back, the weight of world had been lifted from my shoulders. Then when the texts, messages, comments, tweets, etc. came rolling in, I felt like a new person. Your sweet and thoughtful words brought me to tears (of happiness of course).

Well, now that it has been a few weeks since I wrote that post, I have kind of felt like I am at a stand still. I put so much effort and thought into "how am I going to word this so that I can tell everyone how I feel?" I spent so much time wondering what the best way was to say every thing so that I wouldn't feel judged or looked at like I was crazy. Now that all of the time I would have spent worrying is free, I'm not sure where to go from there. How do I further my journey to finding what I'm looking for?

I don't feel like I am (or if I will ever be) ready to go to church. Is there something I should be reading? How does one learn about their faith without being born into a family with an already solidified religion? I want to find what I am searching for without losing who I am in the process. I don't want anything to be forced upon me, but to just come naturally. Maybe there is nothing I should be doing at all, other than simply just believing. So until I find what I am looking for, I'll just continue on with what I am doing... and that's praying.

I would love to hear any about any struggles/journies any of you have ever faced or are facing now. Inspiration can be found in anyone's story so I am all ears. With that, I will leave you with a song that is one of my favorites right now...