Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Now What?

If you read along regularly (thank you, so so much!), then you know that I am on a journey to finding my faith. Before I could write about my struggles, doubts, and questions, it took me a long time to find the correct words. Heck, I was sharing some of my deepest thoughts with you all... that's scary! Of course, after I hit publish and there was no turning back, the weight of world had been lifted from my shoulders. Then when the texts, messages, comments, tweets, etc. came rolling in, I felt like a new person. Your sweet and thoughtful words brought me to tears (of happiness of course).

Well, now that it has been a few weeks since I wrote that post, I have kind of felt like I am at a stand still. I put so much effort and thought into "how am I going to word this so that I can tell everyone how I feel?" I spent so much time wondering what the best way was to say every thing so that I wouldn't feel judged or looked at like I was crazy. Now that all of the time I would have spent worrying is free, I'm not sure where to go from there. How do I further my journey to finding what I'm looking for?

I don't feel like I am (or if I will ever be) ready to go to church. Is there something I should be reading? How does one learn about their faith without being born into a family with an already solidified religion? I want to find what I am searching for without losing who I am in the process. I don't want anything to be forced upon me, but to just come naturally. Maybe there is nothing I should be doing at all, other than simply just believing. So until I find what I am looking for, I'll just continue on with what I am doing... and that's praying.

I would love to hear any about any struggles/journies any of you have ever faced or are facing now. Inspiration can be found in anyone's story so I am all ears. With that, I will leave you with a song that is one of my favorites right now...



8 comments:

Ruthie Hart said...

come checkout Gateway girl! Step 1 is being proactive about your faith and I've seen so many people grow at Gateway! or try Austin Stone

Britt @ The Magnolia Pair said...

Just wanted to say thank you for linking up today :) really happy to have you join! I wish you luck in finding your faith :)

Nicholl Vincent said...

hope you are able to truly find that faith that grounds you!

Hope you had a good day! Stop by nichollvincent.blogspot.com and say hi :)

Anni said...

Hi! I saw you on the link up! Love your blog!
Hope you had a good day! Stop by http://grapefruitprincess.blogspot.com and say hi :)

Samantha said...

Ruthie, does Gateway stream live every Sunday? I know Shoreline does and I'm thinking maybe that would be a good first step. With all of your praise about GW though, I'd love to check it out sometime!

Samantha said...

Thank you so much for your kind words, Britt! I will be sure to link up again in the future.

Samantha said...

Thank you, Anni! I am so glad you love it... people like you are what keeps me going! Hehe, thanks again!

Corazonsita said...

Sam,

I find my strength in prayer as well.

For a girl who loves to talk, it's been the right answer for me. Come on. A conversation with a silent but attentive partner. Win-win.

Between you and me (and the rest of your blog readers), prayer has lead me back to sanity, peace and even anger. It served as audible journal, helping me talk (plead/yell) through my emotions/questions. Especially after Daniel's death.

I was 19 when our precious little brother died. I was never been strong of faith (meaning, I hated going to mass), but interestingly enough, I was always willing to pray. As I got older, I found my faith was anchored in prayer. Perhaps, it will also be your bridge to your faith too.

All of this to say. Keep the line of communication open. ;)