Wednesday, October 3, 2012

He Is Real

The past few months have been trying for me [and my honey]. In June, the boys started school. This meant that my hours were sliced in more than just half. They went from 45 to 20. While I knew this was coming, I had no luck finding another job.

With no other choice, my sweet, amazingly wonderful boyfriend said that he would take care of me for the two months that the kiddos were in their summer program for, and I would find a job by then. Well, those two months have come and gone.

August rolled around, I had been on a few interviews, and unfortunately the cards were never dealt in my favor. Luckily, I had four weeks that the boys were out of school, and was able to bump back up to full time.

-Week one, I needed to have surgery
-Week two, I had a blow out and had to buy new tires [goodbye $400 for TWO tires]
-Week three, playing catch up from the previous 2.5 months
-Week four, still playing catch up and our Labor Day trip [$$$]

Other miscellaneous issues included having my wound reopen and having to drive back and fourth over an hour to the hospital where I had surgery, registrations and inspections went out on both vehicles, and a plethora of other expensive curve balls that life throws at us all. Raymond was out of work last week with a toothache, rent is due this week, and I just dropped almost $100 at the Vet.

There I sat, upset, sad, confused, angry and asking why? Why can't I find a job? Why can't we finally just be comfortable? When will the struggle stop? After many days and nights of silent prayers, an entire day filled with back-to-back annoyances and issues for Raymond, I lost it.

Right now I'm feeling like things can't get worse. Now, I know they always could, but everything is so overwhelming right now. I'm ready for things to get back to normal and to finally stop struggling.

These are the times that I really am thankful that I decided to explore my faith and see what was out there. Nothing can overcome His power. He has a plan. He is good. He is real.

John 16:33 "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."


Jess @ Blonde Meets World said...

I hear you girl! I've been out of work since mid-august and it's definitely getting to my breaking point as well. Try to keep your head up!!!! <3 And feel free to vent away cause I know exactly what you're going through right now!

Amanda said...

Ughhh girl!! I am so sorry you're having to go thru all that. It is SO admirable and inspiring that you turn to God during these struggles. I can tell that Raymond loves you so much, and you will totally find the perfect job soon! What kind of stuff do you do? I can keep an eye out! I do work in the tech/marketing industry, but came from Restaurant Industry and if anything comes up I can send stuff to you!! :) Let me know chica! Keep your chin up! xoxo